Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Of Jobim, Love and Eu Sei Que Vou Te Amar


watercolor by marguerita Eu Sei Que Vou te Amar



Composição: Tom Jobim / Vinícius de Moraes

Eu sei que vou te amar


Por toda a minha vida eu vou te amar

Em cada despedida eu vou te amar

Desesperadamente, eu sei que vou te amar

E cada verso meu será Prá te dizer

que eu sei que vou te amar

Por toda minha vida

Eu sei que vou chorar

A cada ausência tua eu vou chorar

Mas cada volta tua há de apagar

O que esta ausência tua me causou

Eu sei que vou sofrer a eterna

desventura de viver

A espera de viver

ao lado teu

Por toda a minha vida


Note:

Video of Caetano Veloso singing http://letras.terra.com.br/caetano-veloso/187300/


Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Of Aesop,Voltaire and Spring Dream Variations

drawing by marguerita



A Fox once saw a Crow fly off with a piece of cheese
in its beak and settle on a branch of a tree.
"That's for me, as I am a Fox," said Master Reynard,
and he walked up to the foot of the tree.
"Good day, Mistress Crow," he cried.
"How well you are looking today: how glossy your feathers;
how bright your eye.
I feel sure your voice must surpass that
of other birds,
just as your figure does;
let me hear but one song from you
that I may greet you as the Queen of Birds."
The Crow lifted up her head
and began to caw her best,
but the moment she opened her mouth
the piece of cheese fell to the ground,
only to be snapped up by Master Fox.
"That will do," said he.
"That was all I wanted.
In exchange for your cheese
I will give you a piece of advice for the future:
"Do not trust flatterers."

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Of Betrayal,Child of Holocaust,Of Pain and Dreams and a Song in my Heart


drawing by marguerita

The Real World according to MF.

Never Forget,
Mark, I had a dream
that you destroyed.
Gone with the wind.
I will forever remember that.
That was also the
the book
my mother was
reading before
the war and she finished
while pregnant with me.
I nearly was named Scarlet.
How can I forget.
You were the family for me.
My only one.
ONE.
The man that is
my world,
my continent.
And you tore me apart.
We have two sons
I stopped everything for you
I lied, for you
I fought for you,
I did not care for anyone's
reproaches.
You are a part of me
my Sun,Moon and Stars
What are we all in this
Life,
If not passers by
what counts only is
passion and love
not wars and conflicts
not diamonds and
bling blings
that all can go
only love is permanent.
It is in my heart,
on my skin,my reason
to live.
My art comes from within,
runs in my blood,
it is my soul.
I always remember my mother telling
me how after being arrested by the
Nazi and brought to the Wavel Castle in Krakow,
she was on a line among thousands
of naked women,stripped naked
by the Nazi, her earrings
ripped of from
her earlobes, turquoise earrings
given to her by her grandmother,
those earrings ripped off from her earlobes,
her head shaved,
her arm tattooed,
and clothes that
did not fit her,
and then the Nazi
instructed her to
look in the mirror.
A beautiful woman, who had
a normal life,working to help
others, while studying at
Jagiellonski, Asian culture,
Confucius.
She was married
and her husband a lawyer,
one of the first murdered
when Hitler
invaded Poland.
Her father too and her mother
killed in Treblinka.
My mother was never able to find her brothers.
although she was told that
one was killed while flying for
the Polish Army.
I was born after the war.
In Sydney,Australia.
A beautiful country.
My parents left when I was four.
My father wanted to
find his brother in Rio,
in Brazil.
So with this in my mind
and the stories
my father would tell
me after his nightmares,
what else would I wish in life
if not only affection and Peace.
Peace in my life
and Peace in the world.
So, you Mark,
instead of giving me a hug,
a hug,
a hug with warmth and sincerity
you chose
to abandon me,
abandon our family,
neglect us.
Leave me in the dark
Get mad at me,
because I wanted you near me
to hold my hand.
Or as Tom Jobim's song
The Fundamental Thing
is to Dream a Dream together.
To love the man I chose to love
to hug me.
The homes that belong to my
parents,strangers
are living there.
I spent my life rootless,
as a branch of a tree
floating in space,
and now you left me homeless
and destitute.


I am a child of the Holocaust.
Alone.


I only had my two parents.
Mother and Father who come out
from the ashes.
They were beaten,starved,humiliated
They lost all their family,
all their assets,
their social status.
I never saw any of my cousins.
Of my grandmothers,
only two photos,
and one of my grandfather
and one of my uncle.
Beautiful people,
who loved,who cared.
My mother come out of Auschwitz with 36 kilos.
I grew up looking at the tattoo on her arm
I could not stand numbers.
My father come out of a gulag
in Kazaghstan.
Both loved life,
Both had joie de vivre
But we were
uprooted.
There was no place we belonged
to.
So we moved to Brazil.
We had to learn the language.
My father could not
work with the Nazi that were
all over.
We moved from here to there.
I watched my father
slowly through the years
Dying against his will.
My mother lived in stupor
She remembered always
the songs from Poland.
The history,
her life that was.

So, I as a little girl dreamed
of princes and castles.
I walked to school alone.
Many times did not have
money for food.
I started to work as a young girl.
In a country that women
did not.
I had always to fend for myself.
My father was dying.
He wanted me to be strong,
He warned me not to succumb.
I hear in my mind
the sound of his typewriter.
And my father died.
I went to Australia.
So now we were two.
My mother and I
We then went to Australia.
And three years
after enduring hardship
I succeeded.
My art always took me
places.
But I missed Brazil
and I returned
After I achieved success,
Brazil was under dictatorship
I come to America.
I come to work for the NYTimes
as a poltical cartoonist.
The country was
Not the place I was led to believe.
I had dreams like
in the Gershwin song
One day,
The Man I Love

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Otto Kernberg and Of Wrath,Dura Mater and Cabbage



drawings by marguerita


Exploring as many different spiritual and
psychological approaches to understanding the ego
as we could get our hands on, a contemporary psychoanalytic philosophy
of ego development known as "object relations theory" captured our attention.
We were fascinated to discover that many leading thinkers at the interface
of psychology and spirituality.In his more than forty years of research,
including clinical work with severely disturbed patients,
Dr. Kernberg has inquired with laser-like precision into
the subatomic components of the psyche and identified
what he believes are the most fundamental building blocks
in the construction of self-identity.I was drawn with him
into looking at human experience through the
piercing clarity of the object relations microscope.

WIE: Could you please define the word "ego"
as you have come to understand it?

OTTO KERNBERG:

The ego is an invention of the English translation
of Freud's "Ich." "Ich"in German means "I,"
and it refers to the categorical "I," or to what also
is called the "self," insofar as it has a
subjective quality to it. Freud never clearly
differentiated theimpersonal, structural quality
of what "ego" means in English from the subjective
quality that the word "ich" signals in German.
James Strachey, in his translation of Freud,
tried to make him sound more scientific by
bringing in Latin terms and making everything more precise.
In the process he decreased somewhat the fluidity,
humanity, warmth and flexibility of Freud's terminology
and the poetic aspect of Freud's writings. It is true
that Freud in 1923 started to describe his "Ich," his "I,"
his "self," as a structure of the psychic apparatus

in contrast to the id and the superego.

And this was then
picked up by the ego psychologists, particularly in this country.
Many characteristics of the ego have been defined.
The ego is the seat of consciousness; it's the seat of perception.
The ego controls motility; the ego controls unconscious defense mechanisms;
the ego is the integrating agency that brings together
the demands of external reality and the superego.
While all of this sounds a little mechanical, they are impersonal functions,
and classical, pure ego psychology went in
that direction, losing touch with the subjective quality
of the self-concept.
So this is why nowadays there has been a reaction against this.
Object relations is a contemporary psychoanalytic theory
that puts the emphasis on the importance of earliest relations
with significant others
as the building blocks of the construction
of the tripartite structure of ego, superego and id.
We absorb what's going on around us,
our relationships with things and with people.

The ego is like a computer, absorbing information, integrating it
and learning how to sort out what is important from what is not;
what is good, what is bad;
what is helpful, what is damaging.
We learn the control of our own body,
and we gradually learn to differentiate
what's inside from what's outside.
And eventually, an internal world is built up.

Part of this remains in conscious memory,
in consciousness—a small part.
And a large part goes into unconscious memory,
into what is called the "preconscious."
The preconscious is like a reservoir
of information that we don't think about
all of the time, but that we have access to.
And part goes into a still deeper level,
the dynamic unconscious or the id.

Now, what's in that dynamic unconscious or the id?

All of that which the ego or self
cannot tolerate in consciousness.
It's just too intense;
it's too dangerous,
and it tends to get forbidden.

Freud said that what are particularly intense
and tend to get forbidden are
early sexual impulses and desires .
. So the ego has the double task of general learning
as well as setting up an internal world
of representations of self and others.
And these representations are gradually integrated,
so then the ego develops an integrated sense of self
and an integrated sense of significant others—

an internal world of the people we love
and who love us
—orwhat Joseph Sandler called the "representational world."
The ego, in short, is the seat of consciousness, of perception,
of motor control, of conscious memory,
of access to the preconscious.
But also—and very fundamentally—
it's the seat of the world of internalized
object relations and an integrated sense of self.

WIE: Many spiritual traditions define the ego
very differently from the way
that the psychoanalytic tradition
usually speaks about it.
In fact, the ego is seen not as something that
we would want to cultivate
or develop, but as the very force within us
that we must do battle with and ultimately
extinguish if we want to evolve spiritually.

In these traditions, the ego is understood

to be the force of narcissism

and self-centrism

and as the insatiable

and fundamentally aggressive

need to always see ourselves

as separate from others.

These traditions see the ego,

in this sense, as the enemy on the spiritual path

—as that which thwarts our higher spiritual aspirations.

In your work, have you encountered anything

like this within the human personality?

OK: I'm familiar with this approach to spirituality;
one finds this particularly in
Eastern religious movements.

However, it seems to me that there are
semantic problems here.
There is a psychoanalytic concept of narcissism.

At the clinical level, "narcissism"
refers simply to self-love, self-esteem and,
at a more theoretical level,
to the investment in the ego with libidinal energy.

When Freud coined the concept of narcissism,

he assumed that libido was first invested in the self

and then later displaced onto others.
And eventually, a certain equilibrium
is established by which one invests both self
and others with libido or love.
One implication of this early formulation
is that if there is too much self-love,
there is not a lot left for loving others.
And if there is too much altruism,
there is not much love left for self.
This early formulation, however,
has been questioned in the light of later findings.

Now, the dominant psychoanalytic thinking
is that the loving investment in self
and in others occurs simultaneously
and that under normal conditions,
self-love and love of others go together.
Those happy natures who have been treated
well are at peace with self,
can be very secure,
love themselves—
and at the same time be
very committed to others.

This is very different from abnormal conditions
in which there is abnormal self-love.

Pathological narcissism is
what is usually called an "ego trip."
This is an individual with
an exaggerated love of self
and in whom there is a devaluation of others.

There is an impoverishment
of that internal world
of significant others,
the representational world
that I described to you.
So these individuals
who are very full of themselves
at the same time
don't have an internal world
of representations of significant others
nor the richness of an internal moral world,

and they are excessively dependent

on being admired and accepted by others.

On the one hand, these people are
very grandiose, yet on the other,

they are easily hurt,

feel easily rejected

and easily can get very envious

and resentful of other people

who don't suffer from the same

hypersensitivity that they do.

When you have somebody with what's
perceived as a very great ego,

that usually indicates the existence
of abnormal narcissistic structures,
where the love is invested in self
with a kind of grandiosity,
entitlement and ruthlessness.
There is also a sense of emptiness
that goes with this
because the richness of life comes
from our gratifying intimate relations
with significant others
as well as from our appreciation of ideals
that are outside of us,
for example, in the area of truth
or science, or the area of aesthetics
or art,
or
in the area of religion and moral values.

People with an abnormal
grandiose self-sense cannot invest
normally in these values,
and their life is impoverished.

So from the psychoanalytic viewpoint,
the idea that spirituality implies
an effort to reduce the importance of the ego,
of narcissism,

in order to open oneself up

to religion, to art, to truth, holds true
for narcissistic pathology,
but not necessarily fornormal
self-esteem or self-regard.
That should be harmonious with
spiritual development.
And there is a natural religiosity
that is part of normal development,
reflected by all of the trends toward
developing an integrated
internal moral system.

Psychoanalysis has nothing to say
about the existence of God—
that's a philosophical problem,
not a psychological one.
But certainly there's something to say
in the sense that religiosity
is a profound human need
and that the religions—
or universally organized moral systems
are directed to protect what is good against evil
—make eminent sense
from a psychological viewpoint

because evil exists.

It exists in the sense that primitive aggression
is always there
as a potential in the human mind.

It shows up not only under
abnormal conditions of the individual
but it also shows up when there are
what we call "regressive group situations,"
regressive mass psychology situations
in which aggression can rapidly
take hold and, therefore, represents
concretely what we call "evil."

WIE: Traditional religious


or spiritual perspectives



tend to see these matters


as more absolute;

there is not a distinction between

"normal" and "healthy" narcissism—

and, in fact, "healthy narcissism"
would be seen as an oxymoron because,

from this point of view,

any form of narcissism would be seen

as a negative expression of

self-centrism and failure

to show awareness of

and concern for others.

From this perspective,

the seeds of narcissism are the seeds of

corruption and evil.

Based on your experience as a psychoanalyst,

do you think that it is possible

to uproot all vestiges of

negative narcissism within the self?

Is this an ideal that you would even

encourage people to strive for?


OK: Well, again, the idea that spirituality

and narcissism cannot go together

I think is a mistake, because
it does not properly differentiate
between normal and abnormal narcissism,
as I have explained.
Secondly, by the same token,

one cannot say that the evil in the world

is constituted by narcissism.

But it is significantly constituted

by pathological narcissism.


And I would add even further,
it is constituted not just by any
pathological narcissism
but by the most severe forms of it—
in which there is a particular malignant
development
that consists of a return

to primitive aggression

and an idealization of the self

as an aggressive self with power over others.

This pathological idealization of the self

as an aggressive self

clinically is called "malignant narcissism."

And this is very much connected with evil

and with a number of clinical forms

that evil takes, such as

the pleasure and enjoyment

in controlling others,

in making them suffer,

in destroying them,

or the casual pleasure in using others' trust

and confidence and love

to exploit them and to destroy them.

That's the real evil

—that synthesis between pathological

narcissism and primitive aggression.

And we find that at the level of individuals

and in groups as well.

Sometimes we find it in organizations.

We find it in certain fundamentalist ideologies;

we find it in certain aspects of mass psychology.

That's the real evil.

But to answer your question:

No, it is not ideal to divest everybody

of narcissism ,

because normal narcissism

is a source of pleasure in living,

of enjoyment of self,

enjoyment of healthy self-affirmation,

healthy aggression,

enjoyment of sexuality,

eroticism, love, intimacy.

This is all part of normal narcissism.

And what I am trying to say, in essence,

is that I see no contradiction

between normal narcissism and the

spiritual orientation,

although there is all the contradiction

in the world between abnormal

narcissism and spirituality.

Excerpts of an interview with

Otto Kernberg

by Susan Bridle

Dr. Kernberg is not only a principal architect of object relations theory
but is also widely regarded as the world's leading expert
on borderline personality disorders and pathological narcissism.
Current President of the International Psychoanalytic Association,
founded by Sigmund Freud in 1908, he is also Director of
the Personality Disorders Institute and the
Cornell Psychotherapy Program at The New York Hospital
Cornell Medical Center and Professor of Psychiatry at
the Cornell University Medical College.
He is the author or coauthor of thirteen books as well as
dozens of research papers.