Hitler and Me: aA Letter to my sons Stefan and Jacob

Stefan and Jacob.

 I wanted you to be aware that my father, your grandfather.Dr.Stefan Felix Bornstein,died on September 29th,1967.

 It will be 42 years and I was 17 years old then.

 His last words as he fell into a coma,where "Marguerita how are you and your mother going to survive,not knowing himself that I was already the provider and taking care of him and my mother.

 I was working and believe me I am proud of myself that I was able to stand up on my feet,with integrity and  following my parents will,to be a person  with a conscience and own myself.

 I hope you take a moment to think and evaluate my words.

 My parents instilled in me a sense of strength that no book,college or any institution or religion could ever give me.

 Maybe it does not translate in  dollars,but I am a free and happy woman.

 I only wished that after all I endured through my childhood and after,I would have met a loving man,a companion and someone able to have feelings to share all I gave  and had to offer.

 It is pathetic and tragic,that my dreams of having a home, a family ,harmony and do my artwork,as I always worked and have a talent which I was born with, eluded me .

 Life is full of unpredictable outcomes.

 I have no skeletons in the closet, and I still believe that the sun will shine for me.

 I am grateful to everyone who appears on my path and lends me support and wishes me to live.

 I  hope I will still live for quite sometime,but I am nearing 60,and what a challenge ! I had in my hands so far and still working to pull off.

 It is extremely shocking for me to be facing again  the knocks on the door of the landlords.

 When I decided to come to America in 1976,I was in the process of purchasing a  live and work space.

 I had backing and a social and professional standing,which I earned through my talent.

 I risked it all in the belief that in America I would work and accomplish my goals.

 That was  twisted by Fate.

 I lost my moneys and my time  so far.

 I never stopped .I have faith.

 Material things are not all.

 I still can create and will be recognized for my fortitude and my abilities.

 I need only support.

 I am thankful  for my parents outlook.

 They,who lost all,their country,their lives,their families and all their assets and social standing,taught me to love.

 To love life and be strong.

 They had class.

 And class and culture is in your soul and blood.

 It is only so horrible to hear the landlord buzzing me non stop and threatening to put me in the street

 

 I did make it by the time I was 24.

 So I should always reminds myself of that.

 IAnd I will make it again,Stefan and Jacob.

 I am asking for that to happen and my willpower will get me there.

  Please forgive me for all the pain that you  both are sharing with me,as I only had wishes for the best.

 Both of you are great individuals,that need to believe in yourselves,be fearless and not afraid of Life.

 We come here for a trip.

 No one knows better and we all have individual puzzles to deal with.

 So,I hope you have peace in your hearts.

  I realize that I am back to zero.or even worse.

 But I promised my father on his deathbed,that I will overcome any obstacles.

 I have hope 

 My love

 Marguerita

 

 It s a high prize to pay,to weather through the tempests that have engulfed me through my life.

 I must repeat Dr.Schaefer's words who is very concerned about me.

 He realizes  who I am,as he is watching me since 1995 when I had a stroke and a witness of my struggle.

 I am not asking for compassion or sentimentality.

 But I am since my birth carrying the fate of my own family,a wonderful family destroyed by Hitler.

 My parents were wonderful souls,brought up with  with a sense  of humanity,which the world  was totally erased since,with great exceptions.

 The world we live in after Hitler is devoid of any values or  boundaries .

 

The Umbilical News:US and UK deny special relationship is in trouble

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We would add that President Obama and Prime Minister Brown enjoy a terrific relationship, they speak regularly on a range of the most difficult challenges facing our two nations, and meet frequently."

Downing Street accepted that there had been "numerous calls" between officials and the White House, where "potential meetings" had been discussed.

But a spokeswoman added: "We have said all along that the situation with formal bilateral meetings, that they were not pinned down, but they would be spending time together in New York and at the G20, where they would be discussing pressing issues."

Asked whether the men had met in a kitchen, as had been reported, the spokeswoman replied: "Anyone who has been to large international meetings of this type knows that meetings take place in corridors, kitchens and other parts of large buildings outside the auditorium."http://www.guardian.co.uk/

The Wise Latina :Don't complain,Don't Explain:Cuchi,Cuchi!!!

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                                                     Apropos the WISE LATINA:

 In our culture, there is no question that the mother, the grandmother, the matriarch is a very important source of wisdom. It is the ability to handle the most adverse situations and maintain not only strong faith but optimism. So, what is that Latina wisdom? It's a strength of spirit and total command of the family.

Techcnology:Innovation can be a dangerous game:Of cows,sheep,quantum and Yes,I Can?

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“The technology got ahead of our ability to use it in responsible ways."

What happened?The miss by Wall Street analysts shows how models can be precise out to several decimal places, and yet be totally off base.“The price of an asset, like a house or a stock, reflects not only your beliefs about the future, but you’re also betting on other people’s beliefs,” he observed. “It’s these hierarchies of beliefs — these behavioral factors — that are so hard to model.”Better modeling, more wisely applied, would have helped and common sense in senior management.
“Complexity, transparency, liquidity and leverage have all played a huge role in this crisis,”and these are things that are not generally modeled as a quantifiable risk.”
That out-of-control innovation is reflected in the growth of securities intended to spread risk widely through the use of financial instruments called derivatives. Credit-default swaps, for example, were originally created to insure blue-chip bond investors against the risk of default. In recent years, these swap contracts have been used to insure all manner of instruments, including pools of subprime mortgage securities.
The danger is that the modeling becomes too mechanical.”“We’ve learned the hard way that the consequences can be catastrophic, even if statistically improbable,” he said.
In Modeling Risk, the Human Factor Was Left Out - NYTimes.com
Note:
In physics, a quantum (plural: quanta) is an indivisible entity of a quantity that has the same units as the Planck constant and is related to both energy and momentum of elementary particles of matter (called fermions) and of photons and other bosons.
from the editor: apropos Wall Street and bufoons.

The word comes from the Latin "quantus," for "how much."

Behind this, one finds the fundamental notion that a physical property may be "quantized", referred to as "quantization". This means that the magnitude can take on only certain discrete numerical values, rather than any value, at least within a range. There is a related term of quantum number.

The Dollar: Life guard,Underground and Over & the Sprinkler Systems

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"all just one big lie"


Today we celebrate the Feast of the Guardian Angels, those heavenly creatures who are assigned to be our protectors from the moment of our birth and throughout life. Although the nature of angels and the tasks given to them vary in each tradition ,other roles include acting as warrior or guard :a legend among Wall Street traders, was arrested on Thursday morning by federal agents and charged with criminal securities fraud stemming from his company’s money management business.“We are alleging a massive fraud — both in terms of scope and duration.
Although not a household name among consumers, Mr. M’s firm has played a significant role in the structure of Wall Street for decades, both in traditional stock trading and in the development of newer electronic networks for trading equities and derivatives......Prominent Trader Accused of Defrauding Clients - NYTimes.com

Lieocracy,Democracy & other foibles

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Never write when you can speak; never speak when you can nod; and never nod when you can wink.But when it comes to that Senate seat, his real crime may be forgetting the old truism. Blagojevich Nation: Should We Really Be So Shocked? | The New York Observer

Tell me Why and Let's XChange

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What’s happened to America? Why is it so heavy-handed? Why won’t it sit down, eyeball to eyeball, with its enemies and try to work things out?
“the way she (he)looked me in the eye, the way she(he) wasn’t on a pedestal, but one of us.”